The Name Game

Apparently picking out baby names is the fun part. If this is the fun part, I don't want to know what the not-fun part is like. I could not stop stressing and worrying over names. Finally I found one that I liked (Nala Khaleesi) and asked my boyfriend and all I got from him was a "Cool, maybe", so do I put it on the Top 3 list or no? What don't you like about it? So now I'm stuck. What about Mei as a name? Or Daliah? And what if in the few months after she's born we decide that the name really doesn't suit and that Paula would have been a better choice? ARGH!

Names We Like:

Khaleesi
Daliah
Mei
Keiko

Names I Like:

Nala Khaleesi
Khaleesi Mei
Keiko
Nala Mei

See, my list is short and not varied. I'm quite the perfectionist. I guess when T gets home I'll ask him what he thinks of the combinations I like and if we just put them on the list and then when we finally get to meet our girl just try out names and see what fits. That should work. 

21 wks & 4 d

The long awaited, long promised belly picture!!

21 weeks and 4 days Ultrasound

Guysssss~ You know what happens at 20 weeks? You can now find out the sex of your baby.

I went this morning with my fiancé (who has now started calling me his wife).

We had a bet going, I said we were having a girl and he said we were having a boy.

IT'S A GIRL!!!

I think she's beautiful..

Showing off her perfect nose :3

I'm in love ♥

Figuring things out/Making Love

I decided to use a different format for todays post. it's actually part of a conversation that I had with +Chanelle earlier today. I thought with all my little look changes, why not add a new type of post? Hope you guys like it! As for the inside joke of nests and fried, try being tired at like one am and trying to write best friend!! And for those who don't understand french, the italics brackets are for you! ;)


Illy: Did I just like, leave last night?

Chanelle: Mhm

Illy: WEll then
I guess my mind is really gone

Chanelle: Yeah, it's okay~

Illy: Sorry :(

Chanelle: Scorrect.. Jsuis encore plus malade so.. (It's okay. I'm even more sick so..)
I slept in my mommy's room this morning ~

Illy: Awwww, I really hope you feel better soon /:

Chanelle: Thankyouu*cough*
I lava you *explosion of love* :3

Illy: :*

Chanelle: :) my voice though omg is so fucked up LOL like I'm worse than a boy hitting puberty with a squeaky voice...

Illy: Oh Gods XD

Chanelle: :c and it hurts so bad, I can't even laugh.. :c

Illy: Oh nooooo :C That totally blows
I will tell you something though, I figured out what's wrong with T-Wolf

Chanelle: Oh yeah??

Illy: Yup

Chanelle: Explaaaain!!

Illy: He thinks that I'm never happy with anything he does, that I always think he can do better, that his best is never good enough.

Chanelle: Oh damn okay.. But yeah.. Wow..

Illy: Which is not true. But then he surprised me later (partially why I got distracted) and we cuddled on the couch and he pet my hair (which I love) and for the first time in ages we didn't just fuck or have sex.

Chanelle: Niiiceeee

Illy: Mhmm~ he was so sweet and attentive and slow and gods, it was perfect. I wish he'd been like that the first time

Chanelle: Oh wow! Awwee

Illy: It was amazing. I'm glad we fixed things though. Because I really appreciate everything he's done for me, for us. He even said if I wasn't comfortable with using my welfare cheque for groceries, we'd use it for rent and use his paycheck for groceries and stuff, that way I won't be so ashamed.

Chanelle: Oh my gosh aweee ♥

Illy: Yup, I mean how could I /not/ think he's doing good enough or not good enough for me? I mean even HE wouldn't say that, he'd just shame me into doing it anyways. (you know who I mean)

Chanelle: Yeah duh. If not, j'serais pas digne d'etre ton nest! (I wouldn't be worthy of being your nest!)

Illy: Well then I'm a very lucky fried ;)

Chanelle: Ouuh! Fried nests!!! :D

Illy: Nomnomnom :P

Chanelle: Ca doit etre bon... But then it would be cannibalism :/ (That must be good)

Illy: lol yeah, I'd rather not >-<

Chanelle: XD non me either

Illy: Gross. No offense

Chanelle: Nononon je sais crois-moi. (Nonono I know believe me.)
But if we change fried nests to fried chicken though... ;3

Illy: I would go for that C;

Chanelle: KFC HERE WE COME

Illy: GODS YES OH MY GOSH

Chanelle: :D

Illy: Let's go :)

Chanelle: When we see each other were eating that at least once ~ shit I gtg, phones dying ._.

Illy: Kk laterssss and yush~

More Changes

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Bump Picture

I guess it's been long enough since the last photo for it to be time for another disembodied picture of my abdomen!

Elvis much? C;

Sorry! Not my belly but a horrible picture of me! 

Okay, okay, this one is really it...

Yeeeah, nevermind, this lighting is terrible. Tomorrow, I swear!

New Look

Decided it was time freshen up my page's look.. I didn't do much, just changed a few fonts for a more "me" style. I hope you guys like it and that the curlier font isn't too hard to read!

On a different type of "new look", I was thinking that in July I'd dye my hair a lighter brown. You know, something fresh and fun to celebrate my baby and just to switch things up. I've never dyed my hair brown. I've had purple hair, red hair, burgundy hair, auburn.... But never, ever brown. I think it might look nice.

My hair is so dark brown that in some lighting people have told me that there's red in it! When I was younger people thought my hair was black, it was so dark... A lighter color would be fun to work with.
Something along the lines of this.

Let me know what you think by pressing +1 if you like it!

Keep up with me

I'm not ashamed to admit I watch porn. I'm really picky about what kind I watch though. It has to be from a legitimate site, so one that I've researched and checked. I mean it's not the best "industry", I know. But I'm not going to watch something where it looks non-consensual or that one or both of the ah "actors" seems under age. Nothing super kinky, or fetish-style; that stuff is out of my comfort zone, just straight up girl-on-girl mostly.. Some hetero, but it's usually all about the disembodied, disproportionately large weiner, with is a turn-off. I mean really, when viewed like that, it does really look odd... I might say a bit like a banana!

Why am I bringing this up? Well, crazy pregnant woman hormones are amping up the libido, which is driving me crazy and exhausting my poor boyfriend. I can't manage to focus enough to think myself to the O, nor does reading about sex do anything for me. So, yes I have to use this crutch before I tear someone to pieces. Hopefully when my hormones get back to normal I'll be fine. From what I've heard that seems to be the case; which means I'll be watching a lot less of strangers getting it on "at the office"!!

Another?

So I do think I told you that I have a cat. She's now six months old and I just recently found out that she is a grey Mackerel tabby. (I'm not very kitty-savvy,I know)

Giving kisses ♥

My boyfriend and I were talking the other night and he (though not being a cat person) said that he's been thinking of getting a companion for Diabel. He wants an orange Mackerel, but the only ones we could find are at the shelter and all the cats there are spayed and neutered. Something we've considered but aren't too crazy about because we would like to have a litter next year. Plus we'd rather not have to "Rent-A-Stud" just because Diabel is particularly wary of any strangers and would take way too long and just feels like we're breeding. We want two cats and just to balance things, have one male and one female. Obviously we have to wait until the baby is born to see if an allergy will develop. If one does, I'm going to be so sad; this cat was a really thoughtful gift from my boyfriend. At the time I had had two miscarriages and we were both sure that my diagnosis was correct: no way was I going to have children, ever. I've always wanted a cat and he had said, after a particularly tearful night, that if we found one that I liked he would get it for me. A few days later, we were out doing groceries and wandered into the pet store just for fun; and there she was in the display at the back with three other kittens (I assume her siblings) and I fell completely in love with her. We brought her home that day. In a way, Diabel is more than a pet, she is family. If we have to get rid of her for our child's sake, we both agree that she's going to someone that we know and trust to take good care of her. Not a stranger and definitely not the shelter.

If the baby has no problems with our cat then maybe when things settle down we'll get another!

Baby Update!!

So, one, I haven't had Internet until last Friday and I've been sick since then. Finally my fever is gone and I can clean and get my house back in order. My poor boyfriend got whatever virus I had and he's in terrible shape. :(

But, baby.
I am pretty much constantly reminded of my little jellybean's presence because I keep feeling kicks and nudges. At 20 weeks this baby is strong! I was seriously worried when I got sick because I had a fever for four days and I felt nothing. I had to force myself to eat because I was too tired to do so and all I wanted was sleep. I'm glad to know that my baby is still okay in there.

We're finding out the sex of our baby on the 27th (my next ultrasound) as part of a deal I made with my boyfriend. I change his diet because I'm in charge of groceries so we find out if I'm right about us having a girl xD

Some days are quieter than others and the baby is calmer and I'll rarely feel any movement, but that's not often. Most days are filled with 20 minutes at a time of virtually non-stop movement. So much so now, that sometimes my boyfriend can't believe that it's just the baby moving around!