Wednesday, 7 January 2015

Female Wiring

So I really want another baby. Really badly. I know, I know, my Chickie is only seven months old, I should wait until she's older to try for another. It's just, I'm having a tough time turning off the feeling of want.

It's eating away at me. When I'm holding my baby girl though, I'm fine. As soon as I'm away from her I start feeling it.

I am in control


Thursday, 1 January 2015

Happy New Year!

Oh my has it been a long time!!
I'm finally home with my parents and siblings. My daughter is doing really well, she's going to be seven months old on the sixth. I guess I should cover that.....

My Chickie (as I'll call her) was born naturally Friday June 6th at 2.35pm weighing seven pounds exactly and measuring eighteen and a half inches long. She is the absolute love of my life. Really, seeing her smile is the best thing ever. For her protection, I won't show her whole face for awhile. I've already encountered a few odd strangers!




Carrying on ahaha
I am trying to gain weight. And failing. I've been continually losing weight since the birth. I went for a bloated 140 pounds to my current weight of 95 pounds (and I gained three over the last month. This isn't good I know, and I don't know why I'm losing so much weight. Depressing a bit, but I had to get that off my chest. Now for the fun stuff!!

I LOVE being a mom. LOVE. There are some days I want to rip my hair out, but most of the time, I am so happy. There is meaning to my life and light and unconditional love. I love her giggles and laughs and watching her learn and discover things. She started saying "mama"in September, she says "mapa" (Grandpa), she says "mom" (for my mom, instead of Didi, like we've been trying to teach her) and I think she said my sister's name yesterday. And now she's starting on cubed soft vegetables and roots, like carrots and sweet potato. She can crawl and she can walk with help but she really wants to do it on her own. Seven months old and so grown up already. Sits in her high chair at the table and "talks" with us. I can't believe how fast time is going by. Seems to me like only a few weeks have gone by and soon she's going to turn one. ♥